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Hello again!

I am back to my blog after a long time of absence…A lot of things have happened during this time, yet most of them are characterized by disappointment. Probably, I have experienced it in different shapes and degrees, especially when it comes to my professional life.

I have finally understood what other people had been telling me for some time: that it is extremely difficult in a country like Romania to do your job passionately, to simply enjoy what you are doing, to treat the others the way you would like them to treat you. Well, after  almost three years of ‘practicing my own religion’, the one I have sketched earlier, I feel like I failed, I have been betrayed by my own beliefs…

I have spent almost two years in two public educational institutions in Romania, and I realized how difficult it is to state your opinions, to make yourself heard among your colleagues, to create interesting activities and events with your students, to deal with all the problems that our system of education has (lack of teaching materials, of a language laboratory, of audio-video equipment, etc.)… When the head teacher tells you that you should teach only the curriculum and not try to make friendship with the students, your events are not approved just because you have to let the ‘more experienced’ teachers to handle them and eventually steal your ideas, then you start losing your dedication and enthusiasm step by step, finally becoming exhausted and disappointed of a system that is poorly organized, stuck in ancient stereotypes, that does not want to accept modern teaching methods or attitudes of the type do-it-yourself… You have to be part of the crowd, to accept given ideas, and fit into the role, that of teacher-instructor, and not to adjust it according to your personality traits, your students’ skills and desires.

Now, it has been a year since I left the public system of education and I am still disappointed of the way things go in our system of education, it is all chaotic, out-of-date and heading to disaster: students do not know what to do with their lives, are not motivated to learn as they lack positive examples, do not respect school and teachers as the profession itself has become an undesirable one, poorly paid and ignored. More and more young teachers leave the system and get other jobs, whether in private schools, in multinational companies, or even change their professional area, driven by the same disappointment that I have felt. It is not right for something like this to happen, especially in a country that wants to be considered European, innovative and with well-educated citizens. Few days ago I saw on TV that we are highly ranked in terms of illiteracy, a problem we should not be facing in 2013.

As for my disappointment, it is a bit taken away by the fact that I am determined to remain a teacher, or a trainer (no matter how it is called) as long I can influence people of all ages, from children to adults, I can make a difference in their lives and share what I have learnt during many years of study. The thing that I meet former students on the street and they thank me for what I taught them, is a great reward and a proof of the fact I have made the best professional choice.

“The mediocre teacher tells. The good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires.”
 William Arthur Ward



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